This body of work emerged from a period of emotional numbness, when the ability to feel was suspended but the impulse to create persisted. I wanted to feel color again—to experience light, warmth, and movement—yet I was repeatedly drawn toward darkness. Works created during this time carry that tension: the desire to begin again alongside an unresolved inner stillness. Paintings and drawings from this phase do not illustrate recovery; they document endurance. Color appears not as emotion fully felt, but as something reached for, tested, and sometimes resisted.
